I have been in therapy long enough to recognize that my childhood fantasies around both the assassin fly and the caryatid in the Fiend Folio are closely related to the freeze stress response. Those fantasies test out alternative forms of attention from within a freeze state, forms of attention that

Opening a copy of the original Fiend Folio brings back a visceral rush of curiosity, excitement, and over stimulation. The line work for many of these monsters is dense and textured in a way I still find almost uncomfortably tactile; I believe many of these pieces are by either Alan

At the center of it all. It usually takes me time to get to the root of a project. I jump too far ahead, beginning without proper foundations, or I drift off course, getting lost in squalls of maybe this or maybe that. The pattern has held here. I know