[Octavia] Butler asks us to consider . . . how might we parse what is harmful transmutation versus what is merely different or unrecognizable or strips one of a certain phantasy of mastery and control?—Zakiyyah Iman Jackson, Becoming Human: Matter and Meaning in an Antiblack World (132) Cairn's simple attribute

The phrase "Zoa Tan" came to me in a dream and its dreamy fullness just belongs to my queer little girl's game. With it, I have a working image for the game's cover and copy. This isn't meant to be true final

I have been in therapy long enough to recognize that my childhood fantasies around both the assassin fly and the caryatid in the Fiend Folio are closely related to the freeze stress response. Those fantasies test out alternative forms of attention from within a freeze state, forms of attention that

Opening a copy of the original Fiend Folio brings back a visceral rush of curiosity, excitement, and over stimulation. The line work for many of these monsters is dense and textured in a way I still find almost uncomfortably tactile; I believe many of these pieces are by either Alan

At the center of it all. It usually takes me time to get to the root of a project. I jump too far ahead, beginning without proper foundations, or I drift off course, getting lost in squalls of maybe this or maybe that. The pattern has held here. I know